I'm not much of a blogger--and I'm never going to be one of those thorough and systematic philosophers.  I'm too busy working my day job or creating stuff to be a good scholar.

I look at myself now and see a second rate artist, third rate composer, and a fourth rate scholar-- I'm am amateur at everything... and I guess I don't feel especially bad about it.  I use amateur in the best possible sense of that word, knowing that it has terrible connotations as well.

finished working 12 days in a row this last Friday--and I'm STILL pretty tired!  I think Friday ended up being 13 consecutive hours of labor punctuated by a 15  minute break and a 40 minute lunch.  I can't even remember if we took the last break or not.  it doesn't bother me either way-- we got the job done.  that's the important thing.

I don't see my job as just some mundane or boring thing-- I feel as though it's important to do things well.  I've always tried approaching work as though there's no such thing as an unimportant or worthless task.  if you're there to work, do it well, even if you don't like it.  don't just stand there if you've finished one task, try to go out and find something else--  if there's really THAT little to be done at work I usually head straight for home and work on some music or artwork.

I find myself torn between two desires this weekend-- to start working on some more personal creative projects, or to just bum around the house and sleep!